Not Freaking Out

So we have been in this lovely condo in San Diego for 2 months, 1 week, and 5 days. It has been perfect for us. We love the area, our neighbors, and our church ward. Today I realized our lease ends in 4 weeks! The part that caught me off guard was not the fact that it would be here before we know it, or the fact that we have no idea where we are going to live after this; it was the fact that I did NOT freak out.

Since we have been traveling there have been many times where we had no idea where we would be traveling to next let alone where we would be "living" once we got there, and each and every time I would go through my same emotions...

1. Excitement- ready to see where we will go next
2. Anxiety- not sure how it will work out
3. Fear- that we will end up living in our car (irrational? yes, but a fear all the same)
4. Stressed- trying to find a place to stay in the new city
5. Hopeful- we have things in order and things are looking good
6. Relief- we have made it to our new city and are settled in
7. Excitement- ready to explore and find our local favorites

The list above is me freaking out. Colt is there to tell me not to worry and that everything will be just fine. It has always been "just fine".

The idea of  getting an RV came up again because it is getting harder and harder to find a place to stay with our size family. The person on the other end of the line hears, "I have 5 kids." and the usual response is something like, "Wow, sorry but that wont work for us." And just like that another option is crossed off our list. Anyways back to the RV, we found "the one" it was great, it was just what we were looking for and the price range we were looking at. We could totally picture our family making it our "home to go". As it turned out while going through the process of getting the loan an error was discovered on Colt's credit report and therefor was denied. This really was a punch to the gut as we were hoping that this would be our new "home" and had never been denied for anything ever. We have since figured out the error and are getting it taken care of, the third part has taken full responsibility for their mistake. (I wonder if we can sue, because their mistake has kind of screwed us (if you are a lawyer let me know)) Anyways, it has been lessons learned #1 people are more than a number #2 monitor your credit report and #3 Devry University-CS student accounts department is stupid. 

We are now in the crazy position where we have to deiced on one of the following options

• Find a new furnished place in the area. Which would cost $8,000- $10,000 you know they want firsts, lasts and a deposit up front.(this would end our chance to get an RV once the report is fixed)
• Wait until his credit report is fixed and reapply for a loan and cross our fingers that the RV is still available (about 30 days we have been told) 
• Try to find a hotel that is willing to take per diem during their peak season

As you can see there are plenty of reason for me to freak out but I am not. I know that this is the crazy adventure that we signed up for when we decided to join Colt on the road. I also know that since this was not just a decision made on a whim, but with guidance from the Lord that he will not fail us as long as we continue to trust in him. 

Until next time. I love you C,M,B,C,E, and L

This is me by the calendar NOT freaking out!